N JOY !

Hi! I'm not trying to solve the mystry of life & death. I'm not going beyond death.
I'm trying to deal with the time between birth & death.
Just think ! Why we are here ?...Why U are here ? LIVING ??
What is there , for which u are living ? Do u want to live coz your parents are
living ? OR You don't have the courage to kill yourself ? What is the sole Aim of
your life ? Confused ! What is there in your Aim ? What is the reason behind
choosing a thing as your Aim ? Why do you chose an Aim or Goal ? Is it because
everyone choses one ? Why are you studying or doing a job ? WHY ? Is it becoz
you don't have any other work to do ? Is it what others doing ? or Your parents/friends want you to do that ?


For me (& I think for everyone) ENJOYMENT is the Ultimate GOAL.Some people would disagree with me as many IDEAS & religions say Enjoyment is not the goal but Knowledge is.... but dear you want to know coz u find enjoyment in knowing .... & I think if u don't enjoy doing a work then u can't do it whole heartedly (but u should know when to stop).Enjoyment is the GOAL;whethere it's physical,mental,emotional or something else; the sole reason behind every thought,every Aim,every Work is Enjoyment .... some do it knowingly...some do it unknowingly.....some know it but, deny it ....


Why are you studying ? May be you enjoy studying,may be u enjoy knowing new things, may be u want a "good" job so that u can earn MONEY & Position to enjoy your life,may be to get a job & get married to a "Beautyful" or "handsome" person,may be u want to be recognized as a scolar...



Person to person the mode of enjoyment varies, as u have seen in the above lines; but one thing remains common & ie. ENJOYMENT, the longing for enjoyment.Everyone is thirsty , one drinks coffee, another takes tea , another
takes some soft-drink & someone else takes WATER. But the main Aim is to get
rid of thirst.But i'v seen FOOLs (inculding me) who forget all about thirst & pay
heed to the means more ....like a person is not getting any soft-drink but he has
water in plenty but still he's thirsty as he wants soft-drink !...People make a fus
about a cup of tea or coffee , they dont pay heed to the presence of water; they
have a hangover on the modes of relieving thirst;they forget the main aim of
drinking soft-drinks - to get rid of THIRST.



I'v seen my brother work ! he works day & night..he leaves home by 08:30 in the morning & comes back at 10:30 at night & receives calls till 12:30AM
& then tries to watch some TV (only tries to), and falls asleep on the couch...he
earns a lot....but,do you call this living.....why u earn money...to live comfortably to enjoy life....but dear dont earn so much that u dont get time to enjoy your life becoz the sole aim of earning is lost then.



So, dont bother what people say or do , what the society thinks or does (remember society is for us & we make it & not u are for society & society makes u). Keep always in Your MIND only one sentance - "Will I get enjoyment
out of what I'm doing or thinking" Don't suppress your feelings as GOD has made
you like that AND what U feel IS WHAT U SOULD DO...AND GET ENJOYMENT
OUT OF IT... U DONT HAVE DO ANYTHING... NO NEED TO SEARCH FOR ENJOYMENT as ITS HERE N NOW !.... ITS IN U JUST DONT SUPPRESS your
feelings.



Ask yourself - Will I get enjoyment out of what I'm thinking or doing ?

Would I get Enjoyment in future ? Will the Enjoyment last ? Is there any other

way of doing it ? Is it harming some other Bigger GOAL or ENJOYMENT ?

So, dont get confused or carried away with the modes of enjoyment
(like my bro,u accumulate n accumulate u r so much in accumulating that u
almost have no time to spend; I'm not saying that u dont want to spend but, i'm
saying that u dont get time to spend). Think & chose that mode which suits u the
most (Hungry ? chose between Dominoz or PIZZA HUT but don't forget that you
are hungry..)Get something by which u can get enjoyment at the earliest (but that enjoyment should be stable .. I mean take the short-cut but I dont mean
throat-cut).


So, take care of 3 things
1. DOES THE "MODE" suits you (otherwise the mode is nothing but a
    comode) ?

2.How much time would it take to fetch you , your enjoyment ?

3.How much will it fetch ?

4.Is it stable ?



But there is a MILLION DOLLAR QUeSTION :
Would you be able to enjoy throught your life ie. will it be eternal with respect to you ?







------Extracted from nowhere, it's form THE MAN -- "BABA GRINCH" (& that's ME)

HERE n NOW !

The ordinary mind hankers to be extraordinary, that is part of ordinariness; the ordinary mind desires to be somebody in particular, that is part of ordinariness. You may become an Alexander, but you remain ordinary -- then who is the extraordinary one? The extraordinariness starts only when you don't hanker after extraordinariness. Then the journey has started, then a new seed has sprouted.

Once a man asked a miser, a great miser, "How did you succeed in accumulating so much wealth?"

The miser said, "This is my motto: whatsoever is to be done tomorrow should be done today, and whatsoever is to be enjoyed today should be enjoyed tomorrow. This has been my motto." He succeeded in accumulating wealth -- and this is how people succeed in accumulating nonsense also!

That miser was also miserable. On one hand he had succeeded in accumulating wealth, on the other hand he had succeeded in accumulating misery. And the motto is the same for accumulating money as it is for accumulating misery: whatsoever is to be done tomorrow do it today, right now, don't postpone it. And whatsoever can be enjoyed right now, never enjoy it right now, postpone it for tomorrow.

This is the way to enter hell. It always succeeds, it has never been a failure. Try it and you will succeed -- or, you may have already succeeded. You may have been trying it without knowing. Postpone all that which can be enjoyed, just think of the tomorrow.

Jesus was crucified for this reason, not for any other reason. Not that they were against Jesus -- Jesus was a perfect man, a beautiful man, why should the Jews have been against him? Rather, on the contrary, they had been waiting for this man. For centuries they had been hoping and waiting: When will the messiah come?

And then suddenly this Jesus declared, "I am the messiah for whom you have been waiting, and I have come now. Now look at me."

They were disturbed -- because the mind can wait, it always enjoys waiting, but the mind cannot face the fact, the mind cannot encounter this moment. It can always postpone, it was easy to postpone: The messiah is to come, soon he will be coming.... For centuries the Jews had been thinking and postponing and then suddenly this man destroyed all hope, because he said, "I am here." The mind was disturbed. They had to kill this man, otherwise they would not have been able to live with the hope of the tomorrow.

And not only Jesus, many others have declared since then, "I am here, I am the messiah!" And Jews always deny, because if they don't deny, then how will they be able to hope and how will they be able to postpone? They have lived with this hope with such fervor, with such deep intensity, you can hardly believe it. There have been Jews who would go to bed at night hoping that this would be the last night, that in the morning the messiah would be there....

They have been waiting and waiting, dreaming. The whole Jewish mind has been obsessed with the coming messiah. But whenever the messiah comes, they immediately deny him. This has to be understood. This is how the mind functions: you wait for the bliss, for the ecstasy, and whenever it comes you deny it, you just turn your back towards it.

Mind can live in the future, but cannot live in the present. In the present you can simply hope and desire. And that's how you create misery. If you start living this very moment, here and now, misery disappears.

They have been waiting and waiting, dreaming. The whole Jewish mind has been obsessed with the coming messiah. But whenever the messiah comes, they immediately deny him. This has to be understood. This is how the mind functions: you wait for the bliss, for the ecstasy, and whenever it comes you deny it, you just turn your back towards it.

Mind can live in the future, but cannot live in the present. In the present you can simply hope and desire. And that's how you create misery. If you start living this very moment, here and now, misery disappears.

They have been waiting and waiting, dreaming. The whole Jewish mind has been obsessed with the coming messiah. But whenever the messiah comes, they immediately deny him. This has to be understood. This is how the mind functions: you wait for the bliss, for the ecstasy, and whenever it comes you deny it, you just turn your back towards it.

Mind can live in the future, but cannot live in the present. In the present you can simply hope and desire. And that's how you create misery. If you start living this very moment, here and now, misery disappears.

They have been waiting and waiting, dreaming. The whole Jewish mind has been obsessed with the coming messiah. But whenever the messiah comes, they immediately deny him. This has to be understood. This is how the mind functions: you wait for the bliss, for the ecstasy, and whenever it comes you deny it, you just turn your back towards it.

Mind can live in the future, but cannot live in the present. In the present you can simply hope and desire. And that's how you create misery. If you start living this very moment, here and now, misery disappears.

They have been waiting and waiting, dreaming. The whole Jewish mind has been obsessed with the coming messiah. But whenever the messiah comes, they immediately deny him. This has to be understood. This is how the mind functions: you wait for the bliss, for the ecstasy, and whenever it comes you deny it, you just turn your back towards it.

Mind can live in the future, but cannot live in the present. In the present you can simply hope and desire. And that's how you create misery. If you start living this very moment, here and now, misery disappears.

But how is it related to the ego? Ego is the past accumulated. Whatsoever you have known, experienced, read, whatsoever has happened to you in the past, the whole is accumulated there. That whole past is the ego, it is you.

The past can project into the future -- the future is nothing but the past extended -- but the past cannot face the present. The present is totally different, it has a quality of being here and now. The past is always dead, the present is life, the very source of all aliveness. The past cannot face the present so it moves into the future -- but both are dead, both are nonexistential. The present is life; the future cannot encounter the present, nor can the past encounter the present. And your ego, your somebodiness, is your past. Unless you are empty you cannot be here, and unless you are here you cannot be alive.

----------------- extracted from The Empty Boat....... by  OSHO .

ON THE STREET !

DON ASK ME BOUT MA SELF....
I'M JUST A PASON LIKE YA....(ENOUGH OF ACCENT..)
I'M IN DA STREET CALLED PRESENT,
DOWN DA STREET I'V GOT "DOWN THE MEMORY LANE"(TOO OVIOUS..)
NOW THIS IZ MY PLACE....I DWELL HERE
N U KNOW EVRYBUDY KNWOS ME.....
EVRY ROOM N EVRY HOUSE N EVRY SHOP KNOWZ ME........
I CAN GO WHRVR I WANT.....THEY DON STOP ME.......
ITS A PLACE FULL OF LIFE n JOY ...
DAZZLIN WITH LIGHT n I CAN N'JOY.........
I LIV HERE n I'M IN CONTROLLLLL......



DOWN DA STREET THR...... ALL THE OLD PPL R THR....
ITS DULL n DEATH DWELLS THR.........
THOUGH ITS DARK,GLOOMY n LIFELESS,
PPL R GOOD n HELPFULL .......
DEY TELL ME WHAT TO DO N WHAT NOT....
BUT THEY SCARE ME A LOT...
AS IF THEY R PUTTIN ME IN A CAGE.....
I LEARN n THINK WHT TO LEARN......

N UP DA STREET ITS DA "Mr.FUTURE"'S DEN,
HE'S CRAZY.........
HE'S A HYPNOTIST.....
I LEARN A LOT FROM HIM,
BUT I DARE NOT TO STAY THR

PPL SAY I'M CRAZY..
DEY SAY I'M BORIN....
AS I STICK TO MY PLACE ... HERE n NOW !
BUT THEY MISS THE POINT.....
I KNOW THIS PLACE DOESN'T CHANGE
BUT PPL DON NO IT'S ALWAYS DEVELOPIN...

U MAY SAY I'M CRAZY !
I SAY .... "THANKS" ! TO YA!
AS IT TELLS ME I'M ON DA RIGHT TRACK n STREET CALLD "PRESENT".

it's by me "mr.Grinch"

CHOICE !

Choice is bondage, choicelessness freedom. The moment you choose something, you have fallen in the trap of the world.

Why can't you remain without choosing? Why does it happen the moment you see a person or a thing, immediately a subtle wave of choice has entered in you, even if you are not aware that you have chosen? A woman passes by and you say she is beautiful. You are not saying anything about your choice, but the choice has entered, for to say of a person that she is beautiful means: "I would like to choose her." In fact, deep down you have chosen; you are already in the trap. The seed has fallen to the soil; soon there will be sprouts, there will be a plant and a tree.

The moment you say, "This car is beautiful," choice has entered. You may not be aware at all that you have chosen, that you would like to possess this car, but in the mind a fantasy has entered, a desire has arisen. When you say something is beautiful, you mean that you would like to have it.


First you make a thing beautiful. This is why I say that first you create the trap and then you fall into it. First you think this face is beautiful -- this is YOUR creation, this is just your imagination, this is just your mind interpreting; this is not existential, this is just psychological

Nothing is needed says tantra. You simply see the whole trick -- it is your own creation.



In nature nothing is good and nothing is bad. And remember, tantra is the loose and the natural way. It wants to bring you to the deepest, most natural phenomena of life. It wants to help you drop from the mind -- and mind creates distinctions, and mind says this is to be chosen and that has to be avoided. To this you cling, and that you avoid and escape from. Look at the whole phenomenon. Just a look is needed, nothing else; no practice is needed -- just a look at the whole situation.


When you are attracted it is beauty, when you are repelled it is ugly. But it is YOU, not the object, because the same object can attract somebody else.

It happens every day; people are always amazed about other people. They say, "That man has fallen in love with that woman -- amazing!" Nobody can believe that this can happen; that woman is ugly. But to that man, that woman is the very incarnation of beauty. What to do? There can be no objective criterion, there is none

First you create a beautiful man and then you start chasing him, then you run after him. And after a few days living with a beautiful man or woman, all fantasies fall to the ground. Suddenly you become aware, as if you have been deceived, that this woman looks ordinary. And you were thinking she was a Laila or a Juliet, or you were thinking he is a Majnu or a Romeo, and suddenly, after a few days, the dreams have evaporated and the woman has become ordinary, or the man has become ordinary; then you feel disgusted, as if the other has deceived you.

Nobody has deceived and nothing has fallen from the man or woman; it is your own fantasy that has fallen -- because fantasies cannot be maintained. You can dream about them but you cannot maintain them for a long time. Fantasies are fantasies! So if you really want to continue in your fantasy, then when you see a beautiful woman, immediately escape from her as far as you can. Then you will always remember her as the most beautiful woman in the world. Then the fantasy will never come in contact with reality. Then there will be no shattering. You can always sigh and sing and weep and cry for the beautiful woman -- but never go near her!


----------Extracted from "THE SUPREME UNDERSTANDING"
                                               By--OSHO!


these lines really made me think !

MY BUDDIES : PART 2 (NUNKU DA BEAST)

Once upon a time thr lived a boy .... unfortunately his nick name waz "TUNKU" (having a name Tunku is not unfortunate..then why i chooz the word unfortunate...thr lies the secret).

Aftr some years he had a bro ... unfortunately he waz "Admitted" to the same school.... & as the Legend goes... he waz named aftr his elder bro .... and now Debanuj (Peter) waz stung by his ill-fated "FORTUNE"(Radio-active Spider) & he became "NUNKU" (SpiderMan) ..... this story is as dramatic as SHILPA's victimization in the BIG-BRO show ....... now u can understand how the name TUNKU can b dangerous!


His NAME doesn't suits him as he iz nowhr near a NUNKU... as he iz a BIG, STOUT & HANDSOME GUY!(v A luk at the PIC!) but still this evil world CURSED a HANDSOME HUNK with a name NUNKU (u'll nowhr find this word not in any dictionary!).


whnvr i remebr the name a few thoughts come to mind ------- (nunku this iz for ya)

1."tora(me and sap) amar choti chide dili" nunku as drunk as me n with a pair of chappals without any strap (left) on them.

2."gorum laghe waaaaaaaaaaa !#%@^@&&$#&" fisrt boosing night in hostel; just guess how this beast would luk like(refer to the pic) only in a piece of boxer undrware(with a dozn of rat-holes in it);with that HE WAS running around, as it was agust n he took a no. of vodka-pegs.

3."ahh! ahh! plz! liv me! ami karuke mukh dakhate parbona! AHH! OHH!"-- dark room........me,roy n the beast in his boxr (with the usual no. of holes)...all gone with the wind of "GHASS" & a hand-full of sugar..... me bside nunku n ....(u can guess it from his expressions)

4.chemistry class.........................................

5.ka.....ka...ka....ka.... ku ... ku.... all clean bold....immitating verbally n phisicaly ... me being the cucku n Nunku being the crow.... n dancin with sap's ring tone.... nari nari nari nari nari ......

6.BEAST GOT CRUCIFIED -- "EBAR KI KORBI BOL"... BEAST ON TOP OF ME BLOCKIN MY LEGS WITH HIS OWN....BLOCKIN MY HANDS WITH HIS OWN.... FORGOT ONLY ONE "THING" WHICH CHANGED THE WHOLE STORY(LIKE FIGHT CLUB AT THE END)... N THE "THING" IS HIS FU**ing "EARTH"-LIKE B**LS WERE HANGING IN FRONT OF MY MOUTH..... I COULDN'T HELP MY SELF... N THE STORY ENDED AS "PLZ CHEDE DE AR KORBO NA! AAH! AAH! BHOOL HOYE GACHE".....N THE REST IS UP TO U....

7.OLLYPUB... me n the beast... drinking at the cost of my life n on the beasts money (GOOD OLD DAYS!)

8.swapping chappals n shoes in Khadim's n pulling sap's legs(litrlly).....

9.CRYING SCENE AT DROP-IN..... LIKE A TYPICAL HINDI SOAP-OPERA....KHABHI SAAS BHI BAHU THI............... "TUI AMAI CHEDE JASSH NA" , "TOKE CHADA AMI KI KORBO"....



NOW COMES THE BEST PART.........................."JOYETA".....U GUESSED IT RITE....SHE MUST B THE MOON ...U R RIGHT !.... SHE IZ THE MOON N HERE'S THE AGE OLD MONKEY WITH HIS D**K AS LONG AS A FU**IN 6 METRE POLE......THE LEGEND HAS IT--- AFT THE FAILURE NUNKU SAID "BANOR HOYE CHAND DHORTE GESHLAM".... WITH A MUSKI ON HIS FACE....BUT THIS DIDN'T PUT HIM DOWN(I'LL TELL YA WHY).......

EVEN IN THE FINAL SEMESTR HE PROPOSED ANOTHR JOYETA(IST YEAR!)........FUL "OUT" AFT THE DROP-IN DRAMA ..WITH 10 RUPEE CHOCLATE BAR,HE WENT TO HER.......HAVE YA GUESSED IT ALREADY ?...YA! U GUESSED IT RIGHT! ..... AGAIN GOT SQUASHED ... AND THE LEGEND HAS IT THAT THE BASTARD DIDN'T GAVE HER EVEN THE 10 RUPEE BAR ...HE CONSUMED IT HIMSELF........



I CAN GO ON N ON BUT IT WON'T END.... NO ONE CAN PUT AN END TO HIS STORIES...HE'S A LEGEND & MOTHR EARTH'LL RMBR HIM FOR ALL OF HER LIFE THAT A BEAST NAMED "NUNKU" ONCE DWELLED ON HER BOSOM......

BUT I MISSED OUT ON ONE POINT THAT THE BEAST HAS A TRUE HUMAN HEART WHICH MAKES HIM MY FRND...... RATHER EVRYBODIES FRND

HE IS A JEM OF A BEAST......HE IS THE HEART OF THE PARTY..........


AND THE LEGEND HAS IT........JHULON M**HI.....

"EBAR SALA MARBE"!

NUNKS I LUV YA! SMOOOOOOOO.....OOOOOOOOOOCH!

MY BUDDIES : PART 1

THR R 3 PERSONS IN THe PHOTO OF MY LIFE. TWO R MY BUDDIES & IN THE MIDDLE , ITS ME.THEY R THE BATTRIES TO MY TV OF MY LIFE. THEY R TOTALLY OPPOSITE POLARITIES WHN THEY LUK AT LIFE...ITS NOT IMPORTANT WHOS +V & WHOS -V , BOTH R EUALLY DEAR TO ME & BOTH R EQUALLY IMPORTANT.... THE DIFFERENCE LIES IN THR THINKIN, THATS ALL ! 1 IS "GHASSakar" & THE OTHR IS "MAALakar" & LUCKILY I'M BOTH (THR LIES THE SECRET).I'M IN THE MIDDLE THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M IN BETWEEN A WAR, BUT, THAT DO MEAN I NJOY BOTH OF THR ASSES... ONE IS THIN AS A "USED TOOTH-PASTE TUBE" & THE OTHR IS A FAT ASS...& ME ... I'M IN BETWEEN..FLAT CHESTED LIKE ONE & POT BELLIED LIKE THE OTHR......FROM WHICHVR ANGLE U LUK AT THEM THEY R LIKE TWO POLES OF A BATTERY...THE BATTERY OF MY LIFE...BUT THE REAL PART IS WHNVR WE R TOGTHR , ITS A PARTY......OH! GOOD OLD DAYS !
I'LL TELL U BOUT THE ANTENNA OF MY TV , BUT , LATR ON .... HIS NAME IS NUNKU & I WARN U THIS CHARACTR IS SO BIG THAT I'V TO WRITE ANOTHR BLOG TO TELL U BOUT HIM.......SO, "TO B CONTINUED"................................